Sometimes few minutes are more than weeks, even months. Sometimes few minutes are just enough.
There is this guy I fell in love. I was worrying about it literally for month. I was asking questions if he is the one, if he is worth it. I was even crying and depressed. So I was thinking a lot about it. I was thinking if I should let him go because I AM worth more than just waiting for him. I was overthinking everything. His look, his smile, his “hello”.
And just now I suddenly stopped. I stopped thinking about it. I just was there. With him, looking at him and I realized how much I like him. Even if it might hurt. He is worth it.
And what I realized is that when you love someone you should always be yourself. And if he likes real you, you will be together. (Or not, I don’t know.)
Today I was standing in front of mirror. I was looking at myself, when I realized the mirror is little foggy. It was not dirty, I could still see me.
I took sponge and I made it clean. Really clean. I looked into it again and saw different person than before. It was still me but I saw little imperfections now. Like acne or my hair that had seemed okay before, but now it seemed little greesy. I saw real me.
As in life, it seems to me that I’m doing okay. I’m nice and my life is kind of perfect. I do all the things okay and everything seems fine to me. But then I look in “the mirror” and realize I’m not that perfect. I can be selfish, stubborn, not very kind. Maybe you ask what the mirror is. For me it’s God, who is showing me things throught Bible, people and different situations. He is showing me little imperfections that I haven’t seen before.
This might seem unpleasant but do you know what is great about it? He is showing me all these things not to shame me but because He loves me and wants me to be better person.